how amazing is God? Seriously

well, the past few weeks have been tough. I have been fighting a slew of battles and of course not just by myself...thanks for being great friends and keeping me in prayers and offering words of encouragement. with that being said church yesterday was incredible. I went to the evening service after a good day of talking to my friends and updating them about my situation. (how i was unhappy at my new old job and very sad and just not feeling good about my walk with God.)

so, when Pastor Steven was beginning night church he wanted to pray for a few people first. He called up Juan and prayed for him and then he was standing there..letting the Spirit guide him and fill the room...and he walk across the room and said "I want to pray for you" and looked right at me and told me to come up to the front! It was totally God sent! I needed that more than ever!

He told me to close my eyes and he began to listen to the spirit and told me he saw a beautiful chandelier, shinning brightly in all different color. He said "that is how God sees you." He said he saw gloved hands moving in polishing different areas at different times, but working really quickly. He said he thought this was God and then he realized it was the Holy Spirit. Then he prayed for the Holy Spirit to come over me.

It was incredible. I really felt God moving. I was at ease for the first time in awhile! I went to work today and talked to Stephan (my boss) told him I felt a little unhappy and told him what i felt i needed and he was more than happy to oblige.

So far today is a good day. work was okay and God is an Awesome and wonderful God...

A good verse

I read this in my devos this morning and thought it might be an encouragement...

"Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls-
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The Lord God is my strength."

Habakkuk 3:17-19a

I pray you all have a wonderful day!

just another update...

Hey girls! Sorry about my absence of late. School full time and work part time is keeping me hopping. Anyway, it is really nice to be able to hear about your lives and what's going on. It makes having to live in Missouri and be so far away not seem as bad. I will be praying for all of you and your specific situations. Jen, it's okay not to know. That is what God is teaching me. Plans are overrated. Megs, I cry (and hope) with you. And Beal, you are so very loved.

If you all could keep us in mind right now we are having a bit of a financial struggle. Thankfully, God sees us through each month of bills though it doesn't ever work out on paper. But this month is especially tight and Joe especially is prone to worry. God has always provided in the past and I know He will again. Also, my dad is out of work and has been since January. He is such a jovial guy that it is not seeming to bring him down too much, but my parents really need health insurance.

So anyway, those are some things you can pray for me about. I hope my silence has not made you think I've forgotten. I love you guys.

Oh the happy times...

So I found out yesterday that I'm not pregnant...still. And I' know that it hasn't been that long, but we've been officially trying for about 6 months or so now. So I went to school depressed and mad and annoyed and frustrated..and to top it all of we had a chapel today about abortion with very graphic pictures in it. It took all I had not to rush out of the gym sobbing my eyes out. Satan sure like to kick us while we're down.

we broke up...

and I did cry a lot. I know that God has someone perfect out there for me...it was really sad though. ok. insert other happy not sad thing about breaking up and such.

miss you girls.

update on my life!

so, i am not sure who still reads this blog! for all y'all that do here is an update about me. Carissa.

Monday Night about 7:30PM
so, last night Omar and I had it out. not really, but he is playing "I don't know what I want card," he is a 31 year old child and I just don't need this crap anymore. I am tried of being dragged around...so, I told him to figure out what he wants...if he loses me again I am not going to come back. I know him so well, I knew something was off and he was reverting into his old indecisive self...So, we are extremely rocky right now.

Tuesday afternoon about 230PM
I got an email back about the Artnews job. I didn't get it. SO, this week is looking up!

I had another meeting with Stephen Steiner (my old boss at GSB) and we are finalizing everything for my move back. I am not sure if this is a good idea, but I guess it's my only option and Omar says that anything is better than where I am now...(we are still listening to his opinion even though his right to have one should be revoked.)

So, it's now 3:03pm and I want to be back with you girls! I miss you so much. So, I bought a ticket to go home the 17th till the 24th. I am going to go see Cristina's little tot and hang out with my moms!

let's hope the rest of the week looks a littler brighter.