I'm Posting...AGAIN...and other people still haven't...I'm just saying...

As if one career change in a family wasn't enough, here's the new stuff. I'm tired of teaching. I love the spending time with the kids element of it and forming relationships and mentoring. It's the best part of teaching. I'm tired of all the working for HOURS outside of school and all the of trite garbage we have to do all the time. I especially don't want to keep up with the workload I have now if we're going to have a baby. Which we're still not, but you know...I'm a planner.

I started praying about what else I might be able to do. A couple of weeks ago I was over at the Bilger's house. This is Kathy's, my dear friend who passed away, family. I was talking with her youngest daughter Laura. In August after Kathy's death Mark (Kathy's husband) hired an au pair for Laura. I wasn't a huge fan of this, but she's not my daughter and it wasn't my decision to make. But Laura and I were talking a couple of weeks ago and she was telling me about how she loves the girl they have, but they really haven't connected and Laura was struggling with her. She was crying me and telling me how she feels like the au pair can't really understand how she feels because she didn't know Kathy. Laura looked at me and asked why I can't just do it.

So...that, of course, got me thinking. After a little while of thinking and praying, I felt that it was right to take the plunge and talk to Mark about it. We talked and Mark told me that he wants me to do it and that Laura and Amanda (his older daughter who is in college) both really wanted me to do it and that he really believed that this is what Kathy would have wanted.

So then I had to go and talk to my bosses about going down to part-time at the school. I'm not really ready to let go of my connections there and working for the Bilgers would only be in the afternoon and evenings. After I nearly started crying in the meeting, they told me it was something that they would make work.

So I'm going to do it! I can't believe it and I don't know how it's all going to work out but I know it's the right thing to do. I promised Kathy before she died that I would do everything I could to take care of Laura and I'm so thankful that this is what God has for me to do.

Because really...who wants to work the same job for more than four years in a row? Right?