I wasn't trying to take the easy way out....

I wasn't trying to take the easy way out...I was just waiting until I heard from a job I interviewed for....and I still haven't heard yet even though the third and final interview was over a month ago. So, I figured I should suck it up and post something...
I absolutely love reading what is going on in everyone's life...however making my own post has honestly caused me a little anxiety mostly because I am in route to being one of those 30 year olds who still lives at home with their parents. I don't want to still be living here, but as of now it is my only option. I am waiting for God to show me what He wants me to do....as of now it consists of working in the hospital as a secretary and taking classes at Rowan working towards my Masters in Educational Counseling. I do not know what the end goal is....but for now this is where I am! I don't hate the job it just doesn't leave you feeling like you accomplished something worthwhile during those 12 hours-although there are plenty of interesting stories. Such as the parents who wanted to name their child Sheehaud...granted I don't know how to spell it...but I am pretty sure it isn't Shithead which is how they ended up spelling it even though everyone tried to change their mind. Or, the mother who decided to name her child Placenta because that sounded like a beautiful name and she heard it after delivery. I think I like the sound of Meconium (which is what they call it when the baby poops inside the womb). What do you guys think?
Anyhow, there really isn't much new for me to report. Like I mentioned before I am waiting to hear about the job working as a case manager with the children and adolescent part of the hospital. I am so ready for something new because I pretty much feel like I have been standing still the last couple of years and not accomplishing much....
However, God has been showing me that although I might not have a lot to show for it....He has been showing me a lot these past couple years. It has been almost five years since I graduated from Houghton and to be completely honest it has been five of the hardest years of my life. My senior year I felt like I couldn't control anything...so I tried to control anything I could and in doing so (unknowingly) I did an incredible amounts of damage to myself physically, mentally, and emotionally. So, the past year and a half or so...I have been trying to get myself healthy again in all of those ways. Unfortunately, it is a very slow process (going to the gym and only being able to use five pound weights ). I am doing much better but there are still things I am working on and through (I think the mind games were the worst part of it). Most of the damage that was done is reversible and unfortunately some is not. But God is definitely good and although I might not be moving as fast as I would like to be-I know that God is control and He has a plan for me and His timing is perfect!
So, that is my post for now. I love you all and I just wanted to share that with you...
Love,
Molar